Ashamed to post this but here goes…




Yep – ashamed to admit it but I got pretty depressed the last couple months and binged.  A lot.  And I haven’t been going to the gym.  The new clothes I bought for work are starting to feel tight and I haven’t been feeling good, physically.

I really need to get back into this.  I’m back and focused again.  I’m confident that I can shed this weight fast because it hasn’t been on for long.  And with Winter almost being over, I’ll be doing a lot more exercise in the longer, sunnier days ahead.

The weight I am now is about the midpoint of how much weight I’ve lost. Roughly speaking, I lost 20kg and put 10kg back on.  Not the end of the world.  If I repeat what I achieved in the past year I’ll get to my goal of 90kg. 

I can do it.


Another binge :(

Well today I woke up at lunch time, with a headache and no energy.   I gave in to a day off (everything) very easily.  I’ve basically been in bed all day feeling a bit sorry for myself.

Today I’ve eaten:  A large packet of burger rings (lunch), burger and chips (dinner)  and a chocolate bar.  Estimation:  about 3000 calories  (of my 2600 RDI).

I am a little disappointed in myself, especially as I’ve just started the 8 week weight loss challenge and might not contribute a loss for my team.  But I felt really good after the binge, which tells me my body must have been hanging out for it.

Tomorrow is another day, and I feel confident I’ll be back on track tomorrow.

Binge :(

shareywFeeling tired from recent workouts and a bit of disappointing news today saw me walking up to the shop to buy some junk food.  Yeah, I guess I’m weak. 😦

This is what I got:  A large packet of burger rings, a packet of mallow puffs (chocolate biscuits) and a block of chocolate.  Total calories:  2800.

D’oh.  That’s 200 more calories than my RDI and 600 more than my actual output for today (no activity). So today is the first day in quite a long time that my calories in was more than my calories out.  Oh well.  One day won’t kill me, right?

It did mean that I couldn’t eat anything else for the rest of the day.

In good news, when I weighted in at the gym yesterday I was 93.1kg. Half a kg lighter than last week and the lightest I’ve been in years.  And when I was at the doctor yesterday I learned that my blood pressure had come down a bit (now 140/85).  I’m not sure if it’s the medication or the weight loss – but either way it’s good news.

At the gym I’ve just signed up for a "8 Week Weight Loss Challenge".  Will post more about it when it starts next week.  Still feeling a bit disappointed about today.  Oh well… tomorrow is another day.

Easy on, easy off… (reassessment)

Lately I’ve been feeling pretty invincible.  I’d been allowing myself quite a few treats and still had weeks of consecutive loss  (Christmas aside).  Anyway, I guess I’ve learned that there is a limit.  I had a gym reassessment a few days ago and weighed in a whopping 1.5kg (3lbs) heavier than last week.  Murphy’s law, right? Gaining weight the one time someone else is watching.  At first I was shocked and asked if we could do it again.  Then shock turned to disappointment as my weigh was confirmed.

Thinking back, I had had a pretty bad week.  My depression has been pretty bad lately; I felt sluggish all week and had a couple of massive binges. Guess I need to find other coping mechanisms…  but when I get that low I just stop caring.  Aaaargh.  Anyway this isn’t that kind of blog so moving on…

The good news is that that weigh in motivated me to workout harder and eat better the next few days, and I was able to get back to where I was in 4 days.  Funny – I lost that weight so fast that the website where I track my weight had to confirm I hadn’t mistyped.   So yep, just a small blip on the weight graph.

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Interestingly, my trainer said I’d lost muscle mass.  Despite starting weight training a few months ago.  I’m not sure how accurate those scales are at determining that kind of thing anyway. How accurate can sending a minor electronic pulse through my body be?  My body fat percentage is 24%, which according to Wikipedia is on the high side of average.  Ideally I’d like to get it below 15%.

And with that my trainer and I discussed what I wanted to focus on (continued weight loss).  She says she’ll increase my reps with weights and step up my cardio days.  I’ll post my new program soon.

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