Another binge :(

Well today I woke up at lunch time, with a headache and no energy.   I gave in to a day off (everything) very easily.  I’ve basically been in bed all day feeling a bit sorry for myself.

Today I’ve eaten:  A large packet of burger rings (lunch), burger and chips (dinner)  and a chocolate bar.  Estimation:  about 3000 calories  (of my 2600 RDI).

I am a little disappointed in myself, especially as I’ve just started the 8 week weight loss challenge and might not contribute a loss for my team.  But I felt really good after the binge, which tells me my body must have been hanging out for it.

Tomorrow is another day, and I feel confident I’ll be back on track tomorrow.

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Binge :(

shareywFeeling tired from recent workouts and a bit of disappointing news today saw me walking up to the shop to buy some junk food.  Yeah, I guess I’m weak. 😦

This is what I got:  A large packet of burger rings, a packet of mallow puffs (chocolate biscuits) and a block of chocolate.  Total calories:  2800.

D’oh.  That’s 200 more calories than my RDI and 600 more than my actual output for today (no activity). So today is the first day in quite a long time that my calories in was more than my calories out.  Oh well.  One day won’t kill me, right?

It did mean that I couldn’t eat anything else for the rest of the day.

In good news, when I weighted in at the gym yesterday I was 93.1kg. Half a kg lighter than last week and the lightest I’ve been in years.  And when I was at the doctor yesterday I learned that my blood pressure had come down a bit (now 140/85).  I’m not sure if it’s the medication or the weight loss – but either way it’s good news.

At the gym I’ve just signed up for a "8 Week Weight Loss Challenge".  Will post more about it when it starts next week.  Still feeling a bit disappointed about today.  Oh well… tomorrow is another day.

Post-Christmas Weigh in

Last weigh in:  97kg
Today’s weight:  98.8kg
Gain:  1.8kg

I’ve had quite a rough week, to be honest.  I’ve had over a week of no exercise, and have eaten a lot of crap  (chocolates, fish’n chips, McDonalds etc).

The weight gain wasn’t as bad as I had feared, and I hope what they say about recent fat gains being the easiest to burn off is true.

Feels good to be back into it now, but today’s gym workout (cardio) was quite tough.  I couldn’t finish my program, skipping the last exercise (water grinder). 

Onwards and upwards…  (or downwards, hopefully).

Running Activity 4.61 km | RunKeeper

Running Activity 4.61 km | RunKeeper.

time:  34:21
7:27min/km
8.05km/h
calories:  464

Today was my day off the gym but I hate not doing anything so I went for a run instead.  Last week I jogged 5km non-stop for the first time, but I wasn’t able to do so today;  I think I’m feeling pretty fatigued.  I jogged for about 3km but then walked for most of the rest (stopping to buy milk on the way).

My right foot is still going numb at about the 4km mark, as it has on previous runs.  I have a leg-length deficiency;  my left leg is 1cm shorter than my right, and although I have a heel wedge in my left shoe, I think this deficiency might be the cause of my right foot numbness.  I’ll have to go see somebody about it.

Last night I was feeling a bit depressed and pigged out on fish and chips again…  sigh. This was after having a chicken burger and milkshake for lunch.  I always seem to turn to junk food when I’m feeling tired/drained.

Maybe I’m pushing it too hard?  But I’m not making much weight loss progress recently.  Gah.  It seems to be getting harder recently, not easier.

Introduction

Name:  Geoff
Age:  27
Location:  Palmerston North, New Zealand
Height:  181cm
Starting weight:  114kg
Current weight:  99kg

Welcome to my fitness journal.  My primary motivation for losing weight and getting fit is to get on top of my depression – something I’ve experienced since I was 17.  However, it’s only been this past year that I have started to take exercise and looking after myself seriously.

The highest weight I’ve ever recorded was 114kg in November 2010.  At this time I was struggling with depression very much, ate insane amounts of junk food (lots of coke, chocolate, potato chips and fish&chips for dinner or lunch almost every day) and got very little exercise (if walking to the shops to buy more junk food counts!).

I hated the way I felt and looked; I was always breathing heavily, felt sluggish and I started to get heart palpitations and chest pains, usually after I’d eaten fish and chips.  This started to really concern me, and after seeing a doctor I discovered my blood pressure was alarmingly high for someone my age.  We monitored it for a few months but eventually I had to be put on blood pressure medication

My doctor prescribed me a green prescription which was introductory gym classes and lessons on healthy eating etc.  The best part about it was after the course had finished, I was able to join a great gym at a discounted rate.

I found the gym very hard at first and although I knew I wanted to lose weight, I really struggled with motivation.  I decided it would be easier (and less embarrassing) at first to workout at home on my Nintendo Wii  (EA Sports Active 1&2, Wii Fit Plus, etc).  I had some success with this, but it was very on/off.  Though I had joined a gym with the best of intentions, I hardly went in the first 6 months.

It was in June this year  (6 months ago) I started taking an antidepressant medication that changed my life.  I had already tried 5 different medications in the past, which were no help whatsoever, so I was completely stoked that this one started to work almost immediately.  It was like I was taking speed (I imagine); I was suddenly motivated and had lots of energy.

I started going to the gym 5 mornings a week and I no longer craved all the junk food I had been eating.  Seriously, I just didn’t need it any more.  I was amazed at how much this drug helped, and I felt somewhat validated; after years of low self esteem and self-doubt, this drug proved that I had a chemical imbalance that had been making my life extremely difficult.  And now I was able to manage that.

As you can see from the graph above, the weight started coming off immediately. Faster at first, but still at an okay rate today.  I’ve lost 15kg since this time last year, but most of it in the last 6 months.

This is only the beginning.  I want to go a lot further with this.

So much happens in a weight loss journey, and there are many aspects to consider.  I’ve started this blog so I can keep track of my progress and process all my thoughts to stay on top of things.  I hope it will keep me motivated to succeed.

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